Yesterday, May 20th 2022, Harry Styles released his third album – Harry’s House. I listened to it for the first time around 1:30 A.M., right after work.
I have been a fan of Harry’s since the end of 2011. The first album release I was there for was Take Me Home, One Direction’s second album. I was freshly 13, and Target happened to be open past midnight; I got the album right as it hit the shelves. So much has changed since then.
Listening to Harry’s new album has put me in a deep retrospective state. I have been watching his interviews, and one thing he said really stuck out to me. He mentioned emotionally coasting for a while, until he tried out therapy, and then he learned of all these rooms inside him. The house he is referring to in the album title is not about a place, but about internal feelings, and his friends.
I really like that sentiment. For the longest time, I have been defining myself as the melancholic, quiet one. I forced myself to believe that that is all there is to me. But this idea of each person having many different rooms inside themselves – I really like that image. In the question of, “who are you?”, it can feel like there should be a quick, easy answer to that. I’ve always wondered how I would answer that if someone were to ask. I would start with my name, and list off my hobbies and interests. However, does that really define who I am? Those are external things. In reality, I don’t think people are one thing. It’s more complicated than that. Knowing who you are can encompass knowing what you will or won’t do, what you believe, and what’s important to you. It isn’t tangible. And it can change at various times.
From the album, I love them all, but my favorites are Little Freak, Keep Driving, & Satellite. The pictures I chose were taken around 5 years ago, and they made me think of Keep Driving. I love the feelings these songs emit. I get to reflecting on my own life, and how I got to be where I am right now. I can’t really put into words what goes through my head while listening. It just resonates somewhere within me very well.
It’s weird being this age. It is so scary getting older, and not knowing what will happen. So much awaits ahead. I’m not where I want to be at the moment. This album brings me so much peace and reassurance that I can find it. I have time still.
I know it is odd to be so keen toward someone that I don’t know, and likely never will know. But I think music is just such a powerful medium, that can provide relief, comfort, and validation. It’s not about personally knowing the artist, or obsessing about their personal lives. I will admit that I got more involved with doing things like that as a teenager. These days, though, I am just grateful for, and soothed by, the music that is shared. When I relate to a song, I am reminded that my feelings are not unique to me. I’m not the only one to think that way. Connection, whether physical or virtual, is good for the soul – at least, I believe that.
I wanted to write my thoughts out a bit. I know I choose gloom and doom too much. For some reason, I used to think I can’t share the fun things that I love on here. I’m not sure what my blog’s genre is. Personal reflection I guess. I just love Harry, and I’m glad he exists. I think he’s so cool. It’s been so much fun being a fan of his for all these years. Some of my favorite memories.